So I spent yesterday setting up this wonderful blog, only to feel thoroughly deflated by the end of it, and all inspired out. Late last night however i had myself an Epiphany and so here it is…..
I am an Open University student, among other things, and this is my fifth year of study. Last year i was lucky enough to discover, an amazing support network for the particular module i was studying, on an extremely popular social networking site. Members of this group were not judged on their grades, or how superior they were amongst the herd, everybody had something valuable to say, and everybody got heard. Friendships were forged, and together we embarked on the journey that for many of us offered hope of a different life, of recognition and for some simply of pleasure. The module came to an end, but the friendships have not, and now we find ourselves setting of in very different directions, which has led myself and some of my fellow Friends, to the creative writing forum.
For many of us it has been like stepping back into the classroom, re-awakening the feelings of trepidation as we explore the new faces and characters, the strong and the weak. The separation we feel as we are torn from the comfort and safety of our present forum, is not only immense but intensified by the unknown of the creative writing forum. Many of the characters, that lay there in, are already published writers, with experience spanning back years, their confidence leaps from the screens of our computers causing many of us unprecedented levels of anxiety! Of course within every group of people we will find those that feel themselves superior, and those that demand to be heard, but just perhaps, they do this because they too are engulfed in self-doubt and trepidation.
Yesterday i was feeling very frustrated having finally figured out how to do the blogging, i was literally lost for words. So i turned to the unknowns, expecting very little, believing that I was only one who didn’t already have a blog and experience galore…I was wrong, and I ask for forgiveness. My very simple and uncreative wording was greeted with nothing but kindness, understanding and offers of help. I am not the only one starting this module without an abundance of experience, I am not the only one who is overwhelmed by the technologies of creative writing, I am not alone. There is hope, that this forum can be as good, and as comforting as the last was, but we must work together to create this harmony. I walked into the house of the Devil and admitted my weakness, i was not faced with monsters, but angels instead.
As the weeks pass, we will evolve, the monsters will grow being fed by our fears, but the Angels are there waiting with kindness, understanding and offers of help.