And the darkness it consumed me…

And the darkness it engulfed me, took away my light.

And the coldness it became me till love was lost from sight.

And the shadows they caressed me, my comfort in the dark,

And the cave it did consume me and I forgot about the stars.

And the seconds felt like hours and the hours felt like days

And suddenly I realised this life was not okay.

I was tired treading water and feared the sudden rise,

All life had drained away from my sparkling eyes.

My voice was but a whisper, dreams shattered on the floor,

In the darkness of this cave I could live no more.
I clambered in the dark, felt my away around,

It took a little time and I tumbled on the ground.
I stood among the shadows the emptiness my friend,

Speckled on the walls I planned a different end.

I looked into the light and fear filled me to my core,

So I slipped into the darkness to plan a little more.

The water keeps on rising I’m drowning in a sea,

So sure that I’m alone I forget how to believe.

I give away my heart I sell it to the cold,

the devil gave a snigger, before declaring it sold.

And deep inside the cave I died a little more,

my death the strength i needed as I crumpled to the floor.
So I clambered in the dark, found my way around,

And it took a little while and I tumbled on the ground.

 

So now I stand alone the shadows are my freinds,

I plan another life with a beautiful end.

But the rocks are all so sharp the rising waters keep me down,

I constantly tread water or else I’ll surely drown.

I planned a life of me no rush upon my time,

the darkness is my friend now, together we are fine.

But the universe could see this my indifference to my heart,

So just outside the cave they placed a shining star.

I saw it in the dark I saw it in the light.

It gave to me fresh promises, it offered me much fright.

 

So I clambered in the dark found my way around,

And it took a little while and I tumbled on the ground.

 

I watched it from the shadows as it danced beneath the moon

I watched and I soon realised the star caused me to bloom.

But fear upon my soul and darkness in my heart,

I have to leave this cave and that drop is oh so far.

So the sky bent down to reach me, gave to me the light,

It waits in shallowed waters the calm ebbing to my might.

The water trickles down the stagnant flow does move,

The coolness on my skin cleanses and it soothes,

I teeter on the edge indifference leaves my heart,

I know I have to jump, but the fall is oh so far.
So I clamber in the dark for I know what I must do,

the shadows were my freinds the darkness was my hope,

so the universe stepped in, a star upon their sleeve,

this cave it was my home but this darkness I must leave.

I never had a reason, a reason I didn’t need,

but now I have a purpose, for I once again believe.

 

Karen Hayward ©2016

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